"Better The Devil" lyrics

My first love is back in town
I think he's drawing maps with someone else
I think the winter's got me down
I'll put the blame on anything but myself

Yeah, I guess this city's starting to wear me out
How much longer 'til I can just lay down?
'Cause I've got that feeling that I can't say out loud
And I don't think there's time left to turn around

All my friends are getting sober
I guess that means that I'm drinking alone
They say, "Thank god that this year is over"
And, "Do you need someone to drive you home?"
Every day's a losing game
I'm trying but I just can't get it right
You say, "Everybody feels that way"
"But we're all going out tonight"

I told you that I'd be there but I won't be
I think that I should stay home with my body
Call a man who hates me, let him hold me
Better the devil that already knows me

And I want to lay my whole life down at his feet
Ask him how the leaving is so easy
Tell me, what's your secret, are you happy?
'Cause I think everyone can see right through me