"October Birds" lyrics

Where'd the October birds go?
I used to watch them from the window
When I had eyes to see
When I was more like me

Where did your rosy face go?
When did your cheeks get so hollow?
Just a reflection of me
Did I hurt you so badly?

I want to be good but the moment I see
That runaway bride on the train headed east
I wanna be like her
I wanna be free
She lifts her dress and she runs into the street

But I've never seen a staircase without dreaming of falling
I'm the flinch in your cheek, I'm the shake in your hand
I've laid here before, and I'll lay here again
And I haven't seen war but I've tasted the sand
I've died five hundred times with your flag in my hand

I've never seen a river without dreaming of jumping
Call me lucky and spoiled, I'm selfish and awful
I wake and I want more
I go to sleep needing you over and over
I take what you give me

No man is an island
I'm the girl on your shoreline
Washed up and heaving
Pathetically breathing
I cling to your sleeves and I stop you from leaving
October birds singing and wedding bells ringing
Tied to the altar, I'll keep you forever

Don't let me down easy, you're in me too deeply