"Session 2 • Not Certain" lyrics
(Ry B going crazy)
I might laugh, I might smile, but inside, I've been hurtin'
Thinking 'bout my life, asking God, "What's the purpose?"
All these bad habits and demons that I nurture
Everybody like what they see, they think I'm perfect
Why you lie and tell me you love me like you rehearsed it?
I think I left my heart in a box, but who's searchin'?
Don Julio for the pain, it's not workin'
Momma said, "Boy, when you gon' change?" I'm not certain
Uh, okay, let's start off with my family
My auntie and my granny
Don't think they understand me
And my sister think I hate her, know your baby brother damaged
Got a lot of open scars that never fully got bandaged
And I don't talk about my problems to nobody
Yeah, I know, there's probably better ways to handle that
But when you open up, and then they use that shit against you
It'll make you live your life, guard up, confidential
And my momma sweet as fuck, my blood so hard
She just want her kids to get on home and play their fucking part
I know when pawpaw died, it hit her kinda hard
She just don't wanna see her son dead or locked behind them bars
And to my pops, that's my dawg, but it be hard to get along
'Cause in his eyes, I'm his son, I ain't grown
And I ain't saying you wrong
But I'm just saying I gotta live on my own
Someday, you gon' be gone, one day
I-I-I might laugh, I might smile, but inside, I've been hurtin'
Thinking 'bout my life, asking God, "What's the purpose?"
All these bad habits and demons that I nurture
Everybody like what they see, they think I'm perfect
Why you lie and tell me you love me like you rehearsed it?
I think I left my heart in a box, but who's searchin'?
Don Julio for the pain, it's not workin'
Momma said, "Boy, when you gon' change?" I'm not certain
I might laugh, I might smile, but inside, I've been hurtin'
Thinking 'bout my life, asking God, "What's the purpose?"
All these bad habits and demons that I nurture
Everybody like what they see, they think I'm perfect
Why you lie and tell me you love me like you rehearsed it?
I think I left my heart in a box, but who's searchin'?
Don Julio for the pain, it's not workin'
Momma said, "Boy, when you gon' change?" I'm not certain
Uh, okay, let's start off with my family
My auntie and my granny
Don't think they understand me
And my sister think I hate her, know your baby brother damaged
Got a lot of open scars that never fully got bandaged
And I don't talk about my problems to nobody
Yeah, I know, there's probably better ways to handle that
But when you open up, and then they use that shit against you
It'll make you live your life, guard up, confidential
And my momma sweet as fuck, my blood so hard
She just want her kids to get on home and play their fucking part
I know when pawpaw died, it hit her kinda hard
She just don't wanna see her son dead or locked behind them bars
And to my pops, that's my dawg, but it be hard to get along
'Cause in his eyes, I'm his son, I ain't grown
And I ain't saying you wrong
But I'm just saying I gotta live on my own
Someday, you gon' be gone, one day
I-I-I might laugh, I might smile, but inside, I've been hurtin'
Thinking 'bout my life, asking God, "What's the purpose?"
All these bad habits and demons that I nurture
Everybody like what they see, they think I'm perfect
Why you lie and tell me you love me like you rehearsed it?
I think I left my heart in a box, but who's searchin'?
Don Julio for the pain, it's not workin'
Momma said, "Boy, when you gon' change?" I'm not certain
