"Pretend Feeling" lyrics

I washed the blood out of your clothes
I always do what I'm told
It's not the thing I wanted most
Nothing else came quite as close
And I was hoping you would know
I didn't want to see it go to waste

'Guess I'm not as sweet as him
He had more time to pull you in
I feel the spaces in-between
Cause yours are something I've never seen
And I was hoping you would know
I didn't want to see it go
I guess it's never not my fault
That I was always self-assured
Didn't think I needed more than her

Take me back to summer skies
I'm too scared and I'm too shy
'Could've risked and laid it out
I guess it's my fault I went down
And I'm bored of doing nothing
Nothing is something
When I'm with you (aah-aah)
Let me try again (aah-aah)
We can just be friends
This all feels pretend