"All Or Nothing" lyrics

I packed up the apartment
Had to shake away the darkness
'Cause my lights were burning out
And getting cold
The world was barely spinning
And the timing was quite fitting
So I took the first flight out to Heathrow

I wonder if stayed
And if the leaves had never changed
If I'd have ever been okay with letting go
It took a couple years
To make amends with all my fears
To see my friends and all their kids
That's what I missed most
Ooh...

I found myself where I lost it all
Saw the bluest skies, even that got old
And I found my God where
People tend to lose Him
Now I'm somewhere in the middle
Of a hundred new excuses
Might've cashed that check
But I missed your call
Oh, I'm never not working
And I never come home
Well, it changed my heart
But thickened my skin
Now I'm somewhere in middle
Of all or nothing

You say looks like you're doing well
From as far as I can tell, you're thriving
Living life just how you want it
And I appreciate your words
But as far I'm concerned
It's been shit show of a year
To be quite honest

I'm back and fourth
And wasting time
Another worry on my mind
What the hell I never signed for this
Ooh...

I found myself where I lost it all
Saw the bluest skies, even that got old
And I found my God where
People tend to lose Him
Now I'm somewhere in the middle
Of a hundred new excuses
Might've cashed that check
But I missed your call
Oh, I'm never not working
And I never come home
Well, it changed my heart
But thickened my skin
Now I'm somewhere in middle
Of all or nothing

(All or nothing)