"Saving[face]" lyrics

I can hear it in the silence
Like violence, like violence
And even with no guidance
I'll find it, I'll find it
Out

When I'm dead to the masses
When I'm gone and my corpse lays cold
Will the dirt make it real when you see what I've become?

'Cause I
Feel like my own skin is a disguise
A better form
Save face till I relapse
And I
Feel like I could blink and lose control
I'm on my own
Same face in a new mask
Are you feeling alive?

I can see it in the static
Don't panic, don't panic
I know I sound a little manic
But I just have to fuckin' have it all
Right now

When I'm deaf to the voices
When I drown in the doom and gloom
Do I keep pretending that I am not this numb?

'Cause I
Feel like my own skin is a disguise
A better form
Save face till I relapse
And I
Feel like I could blink and lose control
I'm on my own

I know I'll never see the end
So let me rot in the dark
Been dead from the start
And now I'll never see the end

Can I make it out?
Can I choke it down?
Can I find out who I'm meant to be?
Rewind
Seems like I can't blend in or re-align

'Cause I
Feel like my own skin is a disguise
A better form
Save face till I relapse
And I
Feel like I could blink and lose control
I'm on my own

I know I'll never see the end
So let me rot in the dark
Been dead from the start
And now I'll never see the end
I let it tear me apart
The nightmare restarts
Same face in a new mask