"Dying To Live" lyrics

I don't know what the answer is
But I know there is somewhere, there always is
I can see the smoke, I can feel the burning herein
As the flowering of my wishes begin
The junk, the feeling I can't hold within
Where hell is blue and fire is heaven
I can't leave my arms alone for two minutes
You get what you give
Ever feel like you're dying to live?

When you're dying to live
When you're dying to live

Why do I do what I do when I do?
I was empty, I was bleeding, so fuck you
It's a tough call on how we enhance our lives
'Stretch', 'Conquer'
We all hear the voices
"Been shooting up so long it looks like shooting down", I said
Now the wave bends, my essence flowing in full cascade
I still don't know what the answer is
Maybe sometimes there never is

When you're dying to live
When you're dying to live
When you're dying to live
When you're dying to live

My spirit, my entity, my hopes, my breathing, my dreams are leaving
While my needle is gently weeping
Floating two steps forward and one step back
My dénouement closing in on black
I can see the mountains
I can see the sky
The tearjerker, the swan song is nigh
Wish you could see me blowing this kiss
Don't forget about me, don't remember me like this

I was only dying to live...

I was dying to live
I was dying to live
I was dying to live