"Actual Pain" lyrics

It's tearing me apart
Deep inside my heart

Tell me why I hurt this way
Should I even love you anymore
I don't want to find out why
I'm too scared to look behind that door

I put my trust in all my faith
And every word between us spoken
Why do I believe the things you say
When my heart's already broken

All this pain I feel
Is tearing me apart
It's what makes you real
Deep inside my heart

I can only count the ways
I earn these scars but they're all tokens
Every time I see your face
I know my hopes no longer showing

I don't need a reason to believe
If my faith's already broken
How could I let love lead the way
When I don't know where I'm going

All this pain I feel
Is tearing me apart
It's what makes you real
Deep inside my heart

I thought so hard
Still I feel like I'm in chains
And I gave my heart
But the darkness still remains

All this pain I feel
Is tearing me apart
It's what makes you real
Deep inside my heart

Tell me why I hurt this way
Should I even love you anymore
I don't want to find out why
I'm too scared to look behind that door