"Country" lyrics

I'm thinking about going back to the country
I'm thinking about going back for some air
I'm thinking about how we used to be friends
I wanna tell you but you're not there
So I'm writing you this song I wanna send you
In this room that I'm tryna keep clean
Last time you were here you'd bought a whole bunch
Of Modafinil and you couldn't sleep

And you know that I'm incapable of changing
Some people just get stuck in their ways
Never thought it'd be me like this
Yeah, I was meant to be brave

And the only thing about missing you
Is that I don't miss you at all
Till now I'd stopped thinking about you
Since you'd stopped returning my calls, oh

I think it's a little bit different now
I got a boyfriend and I got a psych
I know that one of them cares about me
And at least that the other one tries
Sometimes I still think about dying
No, not the fear but the want
Not quite as much as I did back then
But it's still something I'm trying to work on

You know that I'm incapable of changing
Some people just get stuck in their ways
Never thought it'd be me like this
Yeah, I was meant to be brave

But I'm thinking about going back to the country
I'm thinking about going back for some air
I'm thinking about how I can't remember your face
But I know that I used to see it everywhere