"Better" lyrics

There's no sense waiting in this state
I've realized too late
There's only so much left inside
Only so much space to hide
I've dreamed of castles in the air
But I've never found out where
I need a break or a vacation
Before I give myself a scare

Don't try to understand me your logic won't command me
Don't try to read between my mind

If I could kill you with a touch
I'd never hate this much
One thousand colors every day
But all I see is grey
My history is plagiarized
I feel desensitized
Maybe one more shot of reason
Will ripple this disguise

I told that man just what I thought of him
So I'm right where I am tied to this bed
Subconsciously restrained and now I wish I hadn't said
What I said to both of my parents because I made my mother cry
If they'd only wait I'll make it up to them because I can be a better man

I'm floating in a frozen sea
I'll watch the morning break
Giving way to shades of brown
I see the colors all around
For once there's no one here but me
And my autumn reverie
And in my heart I know
It's as close as I'll ever be