"Numb" lyrics

If I look like I'm smiling, that's not what it was
I took something too strong and I think I'm in love
Make a toast to my plug, I was feeling too much
Oh god, it feels good to be numb

I can't shake the darkness, tried since I was young
I'm far too nostalgic, I blame where I'm from
I'll be gone by the morning 'cause I'm born to run
Oh god, it feels good to be numb

I'm so alone
And no one knows
On my own, oh no
God, it feels good to be numb

Called my grandma and mother, they said I look dead
And I won't disagree, it's a mess in my head
I can't live in the moment, I'm scared of the end
Oh, what would I do without them

I was the life of the party, now I hardly speak
Fill my cup with regrets and haunted memories
I pour up this poison so sweet on my tongue
Oh god, it feels good to be numb

I'm so alone
And no one knows
On my own, oh no
God, it feels good to be numb

Crossed out my tattoo, I don't wanna "die young"
But I'm still so afraid, I don't wanna grow up
Make a toast to my plug, I was feeling too much
Oh god, it feels good to be numb