"A Lie Never Lives To Be Old" lyrics

I'm losing sleep, all I want is peace
Inside a bad routine
Today I don't think I'll be waking up
I promise I will change
Or figure out how I can shift the blame
I never have thoughts for anything I do

But I am scared of who I am
I'll make the same mistakes again
This is all I've ever known
'Cause I am scared but this is me
This ain't where my feet should be
I'm waking up from this distant dream

I used to sing the songs about redemption
About how I'm lost for words
And now I'm stuck in the same old ways
There's never been a single lie I've told
[?] my closest friends [?]
I guess, I just came with the [?] dream

But I am scared of who I am
I'll make the same mistakes again
This is all I've ever known
'Cause I am scared but this is me
This ain't where my feet should be
I'm waking up from this distant dream

But I am scared of who I am
I'll make the same mistakes again
This is all I've ever known
'Cause I am scared but this is me
This ain't where my feet should be
I'm waking up from this distant...
This distant dream

This is all I've ever known

All I've known
So right now, oh-whoa