"Mirror" lyrics

What if it don't get better than this
I might be too scared to leave you now
What if you're still my chance to heal myself?
And you like it?

And now I look in the mirror a little different
Look in the mirror a little different
You push the button and now I'm triggered
I thought you knew me a little better
Right when we started to feel bigger, figured
How I hunger for your pain
All the ways I fall away
Just to make it through the day
Oh, to make you wanna stay

What do I do with my emotions outweigh my self-respect?
What do you have to do to prove to me when I'm hurting
That I'm worth it?

And now I look in the mirror a little different
Look in the mirror a little different
You push the button and now I'm triggered
I thought you knew me a little better
Right when we started to feel bigger, figured
How I hunger for your pain
All the ways I fall away
Just to make it through the day
Oh, to make you wanna stay

I can't change ya
Something's embedded in your nature
Waited and waited and I begged ya
Tell me the truth or I'll go crazy
Can I change ya?
Don't wanna be mixed up in your failures
I feel the distance and I blame ya
I can't be fighting alone

Now I look in the mirror a little different
Look in the mirror a little different
What if my waist was a little thinner?
What if my pockets was getting richer?
Would I have you wrapped around my finger?
Light up, I'm drinking liquor and smoking Swishers just to fight ya
I'll be here waiting for you with dinner

I know it's wrong
It's wrong and I know
It's wrong and I know
It's wrong