"Bittersweet Escape" lyrics

Why am I like this?
I have feelings that keep rising to the surface
I'm scared to be alone
So I let my dark thoughts keep me company

I go where the smoke is
In a crowded room no you would never notice
That I'm so alone
Even when I let somebody else close to me

Starting wildfires been easy these days
Blaming other people's an easy escape
What's another vice when your life's in flames

I...
I keep pushing all my luck away, away away
I...
What is it bout me I'm tryna chase, away?
Bittersweet escape

You gave me flowers and all I could do was light it
My hearts been closed so nobody has been invited
When u don't trust yourself it's very very frightening
Soon as I see the light I close the blinds again

Starting wildfires been easy these days
Blaming other people's an easy escape
What's another vice when your life's in flames

I...
I keep pushing all my luck away, away away
I...
What is it bout me I'm tryna chase, away?
Bittersweet escape

Keep going getting nowhere
Move on but it's still right there
Keep going running in place
(Ohh) it's a bittersweet escape
Keep going getting nowhere
Move on but it's still right there
Keep going running in place
(Ohh) it's a bittersweet escape