"Boy Behind The Mask" lyrics

I've always been obsessed with starting over
Moving on but never getting closure
Going mad but keeping my composure
Cause God forbid they see the bipolar

Feeling like I'm splitting two Identities
And they're both getting the best of me
My own minds playing tricks on things
Puppeting my strings, I give up

When my eyes are wired shut
Is it then where I can love
The both of us enough

I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Staring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask

Numbing all the thoughts with magic potions
Anything to feed my oxytocin
The levels always low, but no one ever knows
Cause I'm the master of emotion

It's exhausting trying to hide
The things that I don't like
The parts I've kept inside
Are so ready for explosion

I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Staring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask

When my eyes are wired shut
Is it then where I can love
The both of us enough

I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Staring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask