"Monster" lyrics

She said, "Hey, what's up?"
Haven't seen you
Are you alone?
Where's your boyfriend?
Where's your girlfriend?
At home?
Do they know?
That you're with me
And we're drinking
Got my hands all over your feelings
Knowing that I soothe your demons
Promise that I'll keep it our secret

I met her on my worst night
She took away my pain three times
The biggest mistake of my life felt so right

Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you
So keep pouring the vodka
It's sweeter than my problems
Wish I never loved you
Wish I had a drug to
Take it back and change the past
Slow it down, don't go so fast
Think before I hurt you again
Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you

I said, "Hey, I messed up"
I didn't mean it
I wasn't thinking
About you or your feelings
I was just scared of you leaving
So I gave you a reason
To hate me
To get even
We're broken
Can you see it?
I love you so much yet we're screaming

I met her on my worst night
She took away my pain three times
The biggest mistake of my life felt so right

Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you
So keep pouring the vodka
It's sweeter than my problems
Wish I never loved you
Wish I had a drug to
Take it back and change the past
Slow it down, don't go so fast
Think before I hurt you again
Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you
Too

Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you
So keep pouring the vodka
It's sweeter than my problems
Wish I never loved you
Wish I had a drug to
Take it back and change the past
Slow it down, don't go so fast
Think before I hurt you again
Now I feel like a monster
I could blame my trauma
But I've already lost you
I've already lost you
Too