"ConMan?" lyrics

ConMan, I apologize to your mom and your grams
For wrecking your heart, I guess it was part of God's plan
But wait a sec 'fore we dead it, here is your roses
Took 7 years shit is bogus I shed a tear when I wrote this

I admit, I wasn't the best to you
I gave you shit then you dipped, like what was there left to do
Too busy worried 'bout Grip, shredding thru revenue
I let you slip should've put you up on a pedestal
I was hardly ready for something you could regard as steady
Now my heart is heavy
I'll take it far as these bars will let me
I know what happen viewed love as a distraction
My kids the only things I put above rapping, that's a thugs passion
Cash and drugs stashing emotions under the rug
Not communicating, thinking you'd just know what it was
2017 that's when I started growing a buzz
Playing catch-up 'cause my peers left your boy in the dust
'Cause when they was focused on rapping, I was focused on us
I could've strived more, now it's two kids I gotta provide for
Window was closing slowly, had to switch the tempo on those that know me
Get too comfy and you gon' blow it, homie
Packed my metaphorical bag and hit the road jack
I promise when I take it home, I'm bringing gold back
I'll own that, I ain't expecting you to wait
I got a date with destiny, just let me get a plate

Silly me, uh-oh, oh-oh
I could never give you my love
It was me, uh-oh, oh-oh
I could never give you my love
We can't turn back the hands of time
But it's some things I should get off my mind
Before we leave it all behind girl
I apologize girl

I can't trust myself with loving you
You still stained from all the mud I drug you thru
You thinking, why ain't this a lifestyle he can get accustomed to
Like buy a plot and tie the knot like others do
Gave me a key to your home
I don't want you think I'm leading you on
But I gotta be happy with being alone
If I can't learn to love myself
How the hell could ever properly love someone else
Just know these words is heartfelt
And it'll kill me to see you happy with another man
But I can't expect you to never love again
And rob your heart of it's plans
Can't put a ring on her finger then keep it stepping, nigga
And she'll respect how real you kept it with her
And I know one day it'll hit me
When you stop replying to text questioning if you miss me
And all that's left is history and a grudge kept against me
Evidently, made my bed I'll lay in it
But first I got something to say, wait a minute

Silly me, uh-oh, oh-oh
I could never give you my love
It was me, uh-oh, oh-oh
I could never give you my love
We can't turn back the hands of time
But it's some things I should get off my mind
Before we leave it all behind girl
I apologize girl