"Keep It Average" lyrics

Keep it average
Keep it dumb dumb
They'll think I'm stupid
And be proud of my bare minimum
Yeah and let them think
There's dishes in my sink
Think that I'm a burnout who don't care about anything
Don't let them know you care, don't let them know you clean
And scrub the scum off the tub until the fake plastic lining stings and my hands are bleeding

Keep it average, and they won't depend on you

Keep it average
Don't use too much effort
'Cause then they'll expect it
Then you can't stop when it hurts
So let them think you're shit
That you don't understand
People talking in a room, but then when you come in
They get quiet, stare at you silent
It feels like tiny little knives inside my organs stabbing saying I deserve it

Keep it average, they hate you anyway

They're really fuckin' mean
And they tell me
The person that I am
I know that's not true
But does it matter what the fucking truth is?
I mean it
What's the meaning?
And does it matter?