"theatrics" lyrics

I don't need a hero to save me
Baby, you can call me crazy
Spit upon my face, throw a hook like Jay-Z
Lazy, lately, all I do is hate me
Self-sabotage comin' clutch, I'm shaky (Shaky)
Probably from the drinkin' and yappin'
And the forty seven times today that I overreacted
It's a travesty to livin' like this, and I'm merely subtracting
When I choose to move in silence, let it blow with the theatrics (Theatrics)
I guess it came with livin' lonely
Guess that five year plan wasn't close enough to hold me
Guess that best friend fed up 'cause I ghost and end up folding
Guess that love won't last 'cause I always end up bolting, yeah (Bolting)
And I'm afraid of gettin' closure
I'm afraid of gettin' sick of this and I'll only get older
I ain't shit but a man with some songs inside a folder
Why's it feel like death is dancin' on my shoulder? I don't like that (I don't like that)
And I got hella insecurities
Teeth, hair, skin, false hope, nothing pure in me
I'm beggin' for the silence, but the rain hit beautifully
And maybe I'm just lackin' some maturity (Maturity)
Maybe if I dig upon my past I can super glue my skeleton
Fit him to my frame, tell him, "You only seven, Nick
You ain't do no wrong, you are beautiful and heaven-sent"
Ignorance is bliss, but my innocence irrelevant (Irrelevant)
Trauma bond via satellite
You are what you eat, so the music keep me sad at night
Sixteen to now, pockets still full of that hematite
The only thing I'm lackin' is an appetite, uh