"catch-22" lyrics

I'm tryna find the beauty in life I can't see
And when I go to sleep all my dreams haunt me
And when I see you I try to reach out and touch you
Then I wake up and my heart beat rushing
You ain't helping to heal the pain
Throwing gas on a fire you're fueling me
You ain't helping me feel okay
You're only there when feel like you have to be

And she said I
Live life on a tightrope
If I fall off I don't think that you would care though
She said I
Live life on a tightrope
When I get scared
I just walk with my eyes closed
Don't mean to be this way
I wish I could just feel brand new
Sometimes I like to feel blue
My life a catch 22

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My life a catch-22

Caught between a dark and a bright place
Wanna feel anything I'm speeding down the highway
Caught between comfort and loneliness
If you love me why don't u ever show me it?
You say that too damn much
I been too stressed yeah
Perfectionist but nothings
Ever perfect tough luck
Now I talk too much
Used to not talk enough
I just been regretting it
I shoulda shut up
Why you want me to fade away?
Throwing gas on a fire you're fueling me
You're helping me feel insane
You're only there when feel like you have to be

And she said I
Live life on a tightrope
If I fall off I don't think that you would care though
She said I
Live life on a tightrope
When I get scared
I just walk with my eyes closed
Don't mean to be this way
I wish I could just feel brand new
Sometimes I like to feel blue
My life a catch 22

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My life a catch-22
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My life a catch-22