"Swallow My Tears" lyrics

The past keeps chasin' me around
I thought I lost it, but then it found me
Like it always does
Dragging me back to who I was
And I'm runnin', I'm runnin'
But not from you

I stay one step ahead of the pain
I keep an umbrella when there's no rain
I got my guard up when there's no war
Don't know what I'm fighting for

Give me a second, I need to swallow my tears
I promise, I promise, I promise I want you here
I want you here
But first let me swallow my tears

Lookin' for God, I'm prayin', kneelin'
Had to go and do some healin'
Sorry I was ghostin' you (Ghostin' you)
But what was I supposed to do?
I'm runnin', I'm runnin'
But not from you

I stay one step ahead of the pain
I keep an umbrella when there's no rain
I got my guard up when there's no war
Don't know what I'm fighting for

Give me a second, I need to swallow my tears
I promise, I promise, I promise I want you here
I want you here

Oh, give me a second, I need to swallow my tears
I promise, I promise, I promise I want you here (I want you here)
I want you here (I need you here)
I want you here (I want you here)
I want you here (I need you here)

I promise, I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise, I promise