"Repellent" lyrics

Tested
Horrors I detect
Feeling disconnect
Decimation, medication fix
[?]
Mental moat rocks the boat
Of progress

What do you do every chance you get?
Call me on my shit
Overstated meditated tricks
[?]
In the moment you see red
In the mirror I see dread

Then I get it, that I'm invested
I'm a culprit, and I resent it
(Defect)
Social defect, I detested
(Keeping distance)
So I stayed alone

Brief interaction
Is ideally the way
That I choose for it to stay
Quick dissolution
[?]

Wait
Am I who I wanna be?
I don't say half of what I mean
Could I see my name on your grave?
Am I wrong to feel it out that way?

All you are
Say what comes next
Then fight the contract

[?]

I hate it when you call me on my shit
In the moment you see red, I see dread

I attested that I'm invested
I'm a culprit and I resent it
(Defect)
Social defect, I detested
(Keeping distance)
So I stayed alone
Alone