"Monster" lyrics

Sometimes I look inside myself and I see a monster
Who's really not too tough to kill
Just nobody wants to
And there ain't no minutes left
Before or after
I'm caught within the narrows
Of merciless laughter

I'm burning with curious yearning to master
I must learn to love it then learning comes after
I turn to my books
And c (light) is a constant
That nature needs nurture
But nobody wants that