"i gave you the world (but you didn't want it)" lyrics

I hold my breath and count to ten
And I pray when I'm done all my memory is gone
'Cause it hits still the same
You always looked right through me
No plan to pursue me

Maybe I'm just the replacement
For something that you had to chase
Once you had it, I guess all the thrilling was gone
Or maybe I'm just going too numb
From fighting for being "the one"

I gave you the world, but you didn't want it
I chose getting hurt over being wanted
I chose to stay silent and keep it inside
'Cause your world is better and bigger than mine

If I could
Know I would
Bruise my hands from building you castles
Just for you
To turn around
And crash them and leave them all shattered

Maybe I just filled a void
That somebody else has left before me
And I've been trying way too hard to fit in
Or maybe I'm just going insane
From fighting a war I can't win

I gave you the world, but you didn't want it
I chose getting hurt over being wanted
Oh I chose to cry over being honest
I'm living a lie
'Cause I know you couldn't care less if I died
By catching a bullet just to call you mine
I'd make all the stars and the planets align
If only you'd ever look up at the sky
And open your eyes

If you said "jump", I'd ask "how high?"
And you'd just watch me falling
If you said you're cold
I'd set my world on fire again
If you were a curse
I would cast every spell to stay haunted
I try and I jump and I fall and I burn for regret

I gave you the world
Oh, I gave you the world
Oh, but you didn't want it