"Villian Of Himself" lyrics

Feeling like my father
I'm just like my father
Except I'm a rapper, he's a mechanic
This is postponed now
I'm a post [*bleep*] and
Post poet, and who's still
Trying to figure it out
I can't wait to die
Since I'm a loser
Finally feel alive
Either way, I'm tired
I'm gettin' tired
Feeling so bad all the time

A villain of himself
Getting drunk and pretending that there's no emotions lost [?]
I really wish you cared
It did feel a lot easier to say that she was there for me
So the kid who always cried
So the [*bleep*] [?]
I just wish you cared
I really wish you cared

As relationships, relations sink
It really makes me wanna fuckin' drink
I have the power, yeah
I know the way to get fuckin' [*bleep*]
All goddamn day

The first step is easy
And the second step's hard
And that third step's for really [?]
That fourth step's far
For all the ones from such radical births
Keep going back at worse

I'm the fucking villain of himself
Getting broken, pretending that there's no emotions lost
I really wish you cared
Cause if you did, it be a lot easier to say (that you love me?)
To the kid who always cried
To the [*bleep*] [?]
I always wish you cared
I still wish you cared