"Play Me When You're Sad" lyrics

I long for connection
Been wanting it badly
Constant redirection
Makes friends hard to keep
But it's a holy request
So I always say, "yes"

Afraid to over explain
Why my life keeps on changing
My melodies are my language
I'm not sure how to tell you
I need help when I need it

If you've been in my life at
At any point
I'm glad you were around
I'm glad you were around

Are you proud of me?
I've been wondering
If you've kept an eye on me
Are you proud of me?
Can you tell that I've been trying?

My healing's been cutting
As sharp as a knife
Then sweetness like honey
Cleanses me inside
I feel like a new
New woman

I just wish that you could
Understand my pain
My sorrow in life
I know my name
Means nothing to me in the lights
I've been thinking
"Maybe I should give it all up."

Are you proud of me?
I've been wondering
If you've kept an eye on me
Are you proud of me?
Can't you tell I've been trying?

I'd do it all again
I wouldn't change a thing
I'd lay it all down
I give You my own name
I'd do it all again
I wouldn't change a thing
Sacrificing this
Has been the greatest change
In me

I needed to know what it'd feel like
To lose a grip on my own life
Everything falls by the way side

I think I'm starting to understand
Why nothing I had went to plan
I think I'm starting to wrap my head around it
I think that You would understand

I would've burned it all down
God, I don't think I'd have made it out
Even with my doubts

Oh I'm so proud of me
I gave up everything
I bet it all on Peace
I forged my own identity
God, I know You're proud of me

I realize You're my dream
I give You everything
Doesn't matter what people see
Even if it's just for me and You
I know You're proud of me
I feel it when I sing
I see You in my dreams
God, I know You're proud of me