"Starduhst" lyrics

Yeah

I wanna be a stardust
Turn me into ashes
Take the memories we have and put them in a casket
We built a house out of cards and they all fell down

Now my beds too big and this rooms so cold
How am I 'pposed to tell my mom I don't want this no more?
Cause I don't, mama I don't want to grow old

Fucking heart's broke bad, kid, you did this to yourself
People tryna give you help and you tell them all to go
You are lone, Mama I just wanna go home
(Mom I'm trying to come home)

I never got a callback, I deserved all that
If I could do it all again, I would listen to you laugh
It's all my fault
I'm sorry mama I don't want to talk

And now it's just me
And trust me I'm trying to breathe but I'm still adjusting so it's hard
So hard to catch my breath

And so I breathe in and I breathe out
And I'm taking drugs
I'll never sleep now so I'm tired
Mama I don't wanna wake up

Cause if I do then I'm done dreaming
And back to fighting demons
I lost my mind mama, tell me have you seen it?
I wonder if it's out there breaking with my heart

Say its not, someone tell me I'm okay
Someone tell me I'm gon' live and we gon' see another day
Someone tell me that I'm fine and everything gon' be alright

I wanna be a stardust
Turn me into ashes
Take the memories we have and put them in a casket
We built a house out of cards and they all fell down

Now my beds too big and this rooms so cold
How am I 'pposed to tell my mom I don't want this no more?
But I don't, mama I don't want to grow old