"If I'm Honest" lyrics

Wreck me in the best way
A surprise when you stayed over Thursday
Fucked up is the head space
But I refuse to believe it's a mistake

How long are we to play this game
Not really a big fan of the chase
Said you were done with the others
I'm not stalker but happened to be there and saw you coming out of his place

There's honey this blade
And I'll still take it
Can't help but love the taste
The way you make it

The pleasure and the pain
Think it's my favorite
Wish it wasn't that way
But I'm a slave for it

If I'm honest
If I'm really honest
Would I feel the same if I could have it
Sabotage myself at every turn
It's the hammer to my magnet

If I'm honest
If I'm really honest
Would I feel the same if I could have it
Sabotage myself at every turn
It's the hammer to my magnet

Maybe without this
There could be quiet
It would be nice
Easy one
Wouldn't be restless
Tone the spice
And take my time
A happy life
Who am I fooling
I know my own head
What am I doing
Now I've made this bed
So cuddle up
With my demons instead
I guess I love it there

If I'm honest
If I'm really honest
Would I feel the same if I could have it
Sabotage myself at every turn
It's the hammer to my magnet

If I'm honest
If I'm really honest
Would I feel the same if I could have it
Sabotage myself at every turn
It's the hammer to my magnet

Fine I'll try
Make it work
This time
Cross my heart
And hope to...