"POINTED AT THE SUN" lyrics

I go out walking after twilight
Talking to the memories of all I've ever known
And you can't find me
I'm a million miles from midnight
I'm a blues child, baby, born to be alone

I'm just a loaded gun
I know I'm not the only one
Shooting straight at the sun
I know I'm not the only one

Jesus Christ and a heart attack
Suffering to be loved, I relate to that
Well, maybe you don't know what you have
Oh, and someday, I'm gonna take it back

I love every season, even hurricane
I'm needing just to sit still
I know there's nowhere, nowhere to run
And maybe there's an answer?
I'm a Pisces, not a Cancer
I wish I could be there for you, baby
But I'm just too much

I'm just a loaded gun
I know I'm not the only one
Pointed straight at the sun
I know I'm not the only one

And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself
And I crucify myself