"Paradox" lyrics

Walkin' into the fire
I'm trying to find my soul there
Can I ever feel the warmth?
I am in need
I hope they find me soon

The voices I hear
Are trying to control me
Need to clear my mind
Or never survive
Suicide
The only solution
Blood is too bold
For their retribution

I have lost all my beliefs
But now I chase the truth
And it hurts
It is so [?]
This is the only way

Slashing my arms
To let the blood free
Soon to get away from the pain
I have lost
All my beliefs
To a world of hypocrisy
Not afraid to die
Just an empty soul
In cosmos

Once I tried
To make a difference
But now I'm chasing the truth
Only the pain I have earned
And deceit runs through you

[?] in their eyes
[?]
Take pride in their development
Can't walk away from here

The voices I hear
Are trying to kill me
Soon to get away from the pain
I have lost my belief
To a world of hypocrisy
Not afraid to die
Just an empty soul
In cosmos

Once I tried
To make a difference
But now I'm chasing the truth
Only the pain I have earned
Hard deceit runs through you