"cbb to b sad" lyrics

Well, I hate myself
I hate that I'm sitting on top of your body thinking 'bout someone else
Fucking with my eyes shut
Nowhere you touch me is enough to stop me looking for a way out
I've become that person
Yeah, I'm selfish, I'm weak, and suddenly I hate the way you speak
The way you eat me out
I draw my curtain
Yeah, it's harder to lie in the light, I see you looking at me
Waiting for me

Well, I know I shouldn't be with you
But I can't be bothered to be sad
I'm so lonely next to your body
Knowing that you don't know I feel this bad
Funny how time changes your mind
And you were once the best thing I ever had
Then you roll over and kiss my shoulder
Maybe I love you, maybe I'm just mad

Well, I hate myself
I used to be fun and cool, now I don't fancy myself
Picking up old fights
Tryna make you hate me 'cause I can't be straight when you ask if I'm alright
Well, it's my problem
Yeah, I'm selfish, I'm weak and suddenly I see I'm in too deep
Gonna hurt to leave
And I don't wanna solve it
Even though you repulse me every time you love me and you look at me
Waiting for me

Well, I know I shouldn't be with you
But I can't be bothered to be sad
I'm so lonely next to your body
Knowing that you don't know I feel this bad
Funny how time changes your mind
And you were once the best thing I ever had
Then you roll over and kiss my shoulder
Maybe I love you, maybe I'm just mad
Well, I know I shouldn't be with you
But I can't be bothered to be sad
I'm so lonely next to your body
Knowing that you don't know I feel this bad
Funny how time changes your mind
And you were once the best thing I ever had
Then you roll over and kiss my shoulder
Maybe I love you, maybe I'm just mad

Can't be bothered to be sad