"Deadlock" lyrics

I've wasted time, wasted my own sanity
At home in hell, I am my own worst enemy

One slip and now the pressure's caving in
It's the same old shit but, shit, I'm not the same me
Let it in, I've opened up my heart to something deadly
Show me how to live when I can't breathe anymore
And soak the diamond in the blood you wish that you could ignore

Lost in oblivion
Shit, here we go again
I'll write the lines to my mind's sick symphony
At home in hell but never let it get the best of me

That's just the way it fucking goes
I wish you could but you'll never know
And you're a fool if you believe
Believe in me
And you're a fool to believe in me

And now I'm counting each breath on death row
Lay low, you're better on your own
I'll pray the rain turns into snow

That's just the way it fucking goes
I wish you could but you'll never know
And you're a fool if you believe
Believe in me

My every thought, my every thought is fucking diseased
Naive I know but I still hope beyond belief
That when it blows, the real ones know just what it means
To find a home for the emptiness inside of me
At home in hell with my misery

It takes its toll on me
It's fucking killing me
It takes its toll on me
Oh God, it's fucking killing me
Fuck

Can't control it, gotta own it
Never gonna run if
You can't walk the walk
It takes its toll, it takes its toll on me
Can't tell you where we went wrong
But fuck it, life goes on

That's just the way it always goes
I wish you could but you'll never know
That's just the way it always goes
But you'll never know

That's just the way it fucking goes
I wish you could but you'll never know
And you're a fool if you believe
Believe in me

My every thought, my every thought is fucking diseased
Naive I know but I still hope beyond belief
That when it blows, the real ones know just what it means
To find a home for the emptiness inside of me
At home in hell with my misery

Shit, here we go again
I'll write the lines to my mind's sick symphony
At home in hell but never let it get the best of me