"Transmissions" lyrics

If I could forget all of my sins
Then maybe I wouldn't hold my breath
Until the pain sinks in
And even if my head goes numb
It's a moment in peace
In peace

No matter how hard I try
(How hard I try)
I can't escape these walls
Trapped in a loop of feeling fine
And waking up wanting to die
(All alone I am)
Mistakes are all I have
They taint my name
How can I project my pain
My inability to fucking smile

How can I project this pain?
My inability to fucking smile?

Breathe in, don't breathe out
I can't believe the pain it brings
It's torturing
To follow the heart is to cut it out
But I died when you left here
There's blood in these words
Take me and save me
And I'm drowning in misery
There's suffering
My heart is dead
My mind says yes
What's so pressuring
I'm trembling

I am nothing without you
These lies that they feed you of moving on
I don't need your comfort
I just want you here
I can't wait forever
Death has no return
No coming back
No turning back
Death is forever
Death has no return

Now I know what I have to do
No more wasting time
Pulling these fake smiles
So much time living lies that I'll be fine
Please let me in death
I'm knocking at your door

Breathe in, don't breathe out
I can't believe the pain it brings
It's torturing
To follow the heart is to cut it out
But I died when you left here
There's blood in these words
Take me and save me
And I'm drowning in misery
There's suffering
My heart is dead
My mind says yes
What's so pressuring
I'm trembling

Take me
Save me
From this misery

Hope is just a lie
Everybody dies
Hope is just a lie
(That we're forced to believe)
Everybody dies
I'm next in line