"Flood Light" lyrics

You wanted the best, but it wasn't me
I'll take these thoughts and drown them out before you see
The tone is set, it's never easy
I get the feeling this all happened in a dream
No, needed more than an afterglow
The hesitation in my step I can't erode

Just so you know, I'm not doing too well
I hide it just a little too well
I hope you know, I'm not doing too well
No, I'm not doing too well

It's a flood light, flood light, flood light
Shining on me every day, every night, all the time
Ain't it a fun life, fun life, fun life?
I'm wondering, wouldn't I be better off in the dark all the time?

The tone is set, too addicted to leave
Now it's underneath my skin controlling me
I don't see the use, I don't know where I'm going
I'm selfish, so I blame everyone else for it
I don't see the use and I don't see a sign
I've been waiting and waiting for stars to align

No, I'm not doing too well
I hide it just a little too well
I hope you know, I'm not doing too well
No, I'm not doing too well

It's a flood light, flood light, flood light
Shining on me every day, every night, all the time
Ain't it a fun life, fun life, fun life?
I'm wondering, wouldn't I be better off in the dark all the time?

What good is a bad dream if I never get to wake up?
Someone get the lights off me, fade me away
What good is a bad dream? Do I ever get to wake up?
Will I ever wake up?

Just so you know, I'm not doing too well
I hide it just a little too well
I hope you know, I'm not doing too well
No, I'm not doing too well

It's a flood light, flood light, flood light
Shining on me every day, every night, all the time
Oh, and it's a fun, fun, fun, fun, fun life
Will I ever be better off, better off, better off, better off?