"Only Sometimes" lyrics

Anxiety, all I feel that's inside of me
All I say is apologies
My thoughts are never present in the moment
It's a problem see
Not the person I thought I'd be
Not the man that I wanna be
Caught between being selfish and just being what you want from me
Emotional choreography
Spill my guilt, call it honesty
Regressing lately, maybe, honestly, I don't know, probably
Self-destructive, I gotta be
I just want someone proud of me
Don't you worry, I'll bury all the trauma inside of me

Another day, another mask
I'm feeling down, but it'll pass
Don't you judge me, you don't know me
You won't hear me, so don't ask
I'm living proof I'm the past, or
Maybe I'm just trapped of always looking back
I don't miss a thing, I want
Pieces of me back
Give me all of that
Every night I stack
Doubts up on my back
Confidence, I lack
Throw away the happiness I have 'cause I

I get low sometimes, yeah
I feel down sometimes, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
I feel worse sometimes, yeah
It hurts most inside, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
I get low sometimes
Low sometimes
Low sometimes
I wanna go and hide
Go and hide
Go and hide, yeah, yeah
I feel worse inside
Worse inside
Worse inside, yeah, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
They don't know, so where can I go?

I get low sometimes
I know who I am, but I don't know sometimes, yeah
Get inside my car, I wanna go sometimes
I feel hurt most times, they only know sometimes, ayy
A lot of pain, a lot of secrets
Even if I showed you, could you see this?
Angry when I talk, and I don't mean it
Or maybe it's the truth, and you don't see it
Or maybe it's the truth, you don't believe it
They don't know, and I just keep it

Let me tone it down
Feeling anxious when no one's around
See me vacant when I'm full of doubt, yeah
Timid, I just wanna make it out
In a group of people, I don't make a sound
I just try to get around, yeah
I just wanna show you my best
Every time I try to feel more is when I feel like a mess
When I try to be more is when I get more depressed
Thoughts in my head burn my chest
Hate the way that I get 'cause I

I get low sometimes, yeah
I feel down sometimes, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
I feel worse sometimes, yeah
It hurts most inside, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
I get low sometimes
Low sometimes
Low sometimes
I wanna go and hide
Go and hide
Go and hide, yeah, yeah
I feel worse inside
Worse inside
Worse inside, yeah, yeah
They don't know
They don't know
They don't know, so where can I go?