"who i am" lyrics

I can't sleep
Mind's racing violently
Starting to wonder
If I should accept defeat
I tried my best
I've given this all I can
It wasn't enough
Now giving up is all I've got left

Truth be told, been a mess awhile
A broken soul is all that I know
I've held on cause I'm in denial
That I can still be who I was and escape who I am

I can't sleep
I'm buried beneath my sheets
Tired of rejection
It's taken the best of me
I close my eyes
And picture what I would write
For a reason
If I just stopped breathing tonight

Truth be told, been a mess forever
Wish I could say that I'm getting better
I held on till I wrote this letter
I'll never be who I was and escape who I am

Truth be told, wish that I'd stop shaking
I'll make this call hoping someone saves me
I'll hold on till the darkness takes me
Cause I can still be who I was and escape who I am
If I could just find who I was I'd escape who I am