"October Dark" lyrics

Caroline buys a ticket for the last train
Out of Baltimore in the October dark
Smokes a cigarette and throws the pack away
So her daughter would never know
That she smokes
That she smokes
That she smokes

Fifteen years in and out of prison
Halfway homes are only halfway home
Christmas cards telling momma what she's missing
Made her soft and then it made it hard
Made it hard
Made it hard
Made it hard

How do I say it outloud?
The ghosts that were holding me down
Oh I've finally tired them out
Yeah I've tired them out
She watches her momma from the station
Dragging her bags of shame and desperation
A little girl in the shape of an old woman
Just a child who doesn't know where she's going
Where she's going
Where she's going
Where she's going

Fifteen years of being angry in the dark
Disappeared with the beating of her heart
Holding on to how you've been wronged
Leaves no room for moving on
Moving on
Moving on
Moving on

How do I say it outloud?
The ghosts that were holding me down
Oh I've finally tired them out
Yeah I've tired them out