"Annihilated" lyrics

I had him one spring, one summer, one fall
We feasted on honey till it tasted like salt
Went cold with the season, winter of the self
He was right, he was reason, I was angry as hell

It was so isolating
But the feeling is fading
No longer annihilated

And December came 'round, bared its teeth once again
I lost less than a lover but more than a friend
Went dark with the daylight, like the morn' getting short
Oh, he ran from me just like a river runs its course

Oh, that man made me jaded
But the feeling is fading
No longer annihilated

If I have you one spring, if I have you one fall
If I have you forever or don't have you at all
For now, you're a stranger, an idea of some kind
Might not even know you, but all in due time

Our tale, not yet fated
But our fates will be braided
And I won't be annihilated