"Martyr" lyrics

You say I'm a martyr
And I can't even argue
I keep trying harder
Just so you don't have to

Don't I look pretty
Dressed in self-pity
I beg you to hold me
I worry you hate me

Don't you want me to go down with the ship
Don't you want me to not want the thanks that I get
Who would I be if I had my own needs
You would die trying to out-manipulate me
Yeah I'm holding the gun but there's no need to run
It stays pointed at me, can't you see
I only aim to please

Where should all my shame go?
It follows like shadows
There's no heavier halo
Than the one made of fool's gold

Don't you want me to go down with the ship
Don't you want me to not want the thanks that I get
Who would I be if I had my own needs
You would die trying to out-manipulate me
Yes I'm holding the gun but there's no need to run
It stays pointed at me, can't you see
I only aim to please

Take my face in your hands
While I hide from your eyes
But it's too late I know
Cause you've seen what's inside
I'm a mess and I'm scared
And I'm too tough to cry
But you stay, yeah you stay
And you say it's alright

Don't you want me to go down with the ship
Don't you want me to not want the thanks that I get
Who would I be if I had my own needs
You would die trying to out-manipulate me
Yeah I'm holding the gun but there's no need to run
It stays pointed at me, can't you see
I only aim to please