"Library Card" lyrics

At the tender age of seven
I begged my parents to buy me my own library card
I wanted books that'd keep me up all night
And they became my kryptonite
Instead of people, 'cause talking was hard

I'd bring my books with me to lunch
So that I didn't have to run
'Cause the pages built a temporary shield
From the forces that rejected me
Those who'd never protected me
And for a while it all just seemed so real

Yeah, things were great
Things were fine
But the magic had to run out sometime

So here I am at twenty-one
My life has finally begun
I can't seem to find my way to the next chapter
I'll accept these parts of me
Paper cuts along these jagged sheets
With no happily ever after now
(Ever after now)

So when the time came up for me to finally fall in love
I set my expectations way too high
It turns out I was no protagonist
Boys weren't a fan of this
And so I slowly learned that I should hide

From the reality consuming me
That I'd never be like the girls that they'd write

So here I am at twenty-one
Life has finally begun
I can't seem to find my way to the next chapter
I'll accept this part of me
Phoning in the hope of fantasy
With no happily ever after now
(Now)

Happy endings overrated
I'm more used to getting hurt
Forgive me if I'd rather stay in
My own little universe
Happy endings overrated
I'm more used to getting hurt
Forgive me if I'd rather stay in
My own little universe

The dreams are gone, the wishes faded
I knew this could never work
Forgive me if I'd rather stay in
My own little universe
The dreams are gone, the wishes faded
I knew this could never work
Forgive me if I'd rather stay in
My own little universe

So here I am at twenty-one
Life has finally begun
Then why do I still feel like such a damn disaster
I'll accept this part of me
Poorly adapted literary freak
With no happily ever after now
(Now, n-now)
No ever after now
(N-now)
No ever after now
( N-now)
I don't even know what the book's about