"Weird Hills" lyrics

I took my armor off for the first time
With you, I felt safe

Knew you were an archer
Thought we fought the same side:
My fatal mistake

Back in the forum
They lost their decorum
I was looking for you

Then came the rapture
'Cause you held the dagger
After all we've been through

And I wish I could move forward with grace
But all my pride is keeping me in place

Do you think Caesar misses Brutus
Somewhere down in hell?
Do you think Jesus thinks of Judas
But still can't wish him well?
All these grudges just leak poison
And we're the ones it kills
What weird hills we die on

Cuts were starting to fester
I wrote you a letter
Said the past is the past

Tried to bury the hatchet
I don't know what happened
You didn't write back

And I hate these days, I oscillate like a fan
Between never forgiving and being someone who can
Oh, no
What the fuck happened to the plan?
What the fuck, what the fuck?

'Cause I'm still at the site of the treason
A statue of myself, she's still bleeding

Do you think Caesar misses Brutus
Somewhere down in hell?
Do you think Jesus thinks of Judas
But still can't wish him well?
All these grudges just like poison
And we're the ones it kills (kills)
What weird hills we die on

And the worst part of this isn't
The heartbreak, the parts that you twisted
It's that the you I knew would've fixed this
But you didn't! But you didn't!

Now I'm stuck with tunnel vision
Guess it's just the human condition
I'll die loving you from a distance
I'll be wishing it was different!

Do you think Caesar felt more wounded
In the back or in the heart?
Will we leave it all in ruins?
Are you ever gonna call?
'Cause I'm putting you in music
So I can feel you still
What weird hills we die on