"everything" lyrics

I'm old enough to feel old
But young enough to die alone
And that's a scary thought to have
When you don't wanna die at all

And I wanted everything I have
Take a look to the past
I had wanted so much
Just to find it doesn't last

It's more than just a habit
When you see it you can grab it
But you know it when it hurts
This is my attempt to find the words

It's not a hymn it's not a song that you grew up singing in church
This one's a little bit louder and it's a little bit worse
It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing
It's something harder to find
The thought of biting that bullet shot out of sight and out of mind

It's not just anything

Because it's love, it's sex, it's life, it's death
That lie you told under your breath
The last drag of a cigarette
It's everything, it's all it is

It's all it is

It's not a hymn it's not a song that you grew up singing in church
This one's a little bit louder and it's a little bit worse
It's all, it's not, it's all, it's nothing
It's something harder to find
The thought of biting that bullet shot out of sight and out of mind

It's not just anything

Because it's love, it's sex, it's life, it's death
That lie you told under your breath
The last drag of a cigarette
It's everything, it's all it is

It's god in drag, it's time that's passed
The call you got, about your dad
The softest touch, a taxi cab
It's everything, it's all it is

(I'm old enough to feel old)
(But young enough to die alone)
(And that's a scary thought to have)
(When you don't wanna die at all)
(And I wanted everything I have)
(Take a look to the past)
(I had wanted so much)
(Just to find it doesn't last)