"charlie" lyrics

I was 10, when I found out I had to change
Learn to act, and play pretend that I'm okay
And charlie could never love me the same
Said goodbye to friendship and hello to shame

Lost my key to heaven
And I gained a couple scars
Cause all they ever saw were broken parts

I had to learn to love myself
The hard way
Cause there no books for ten year olds
With heartache
If god is real then why'd he build me this way
It's what he's known for
I thought the good lord don't make mistakes
So why'd he make me this way

At 19 years I thought, I found the one
But he was just an echo of, the pain
That I've endured
I swore at 21 I'd do better
And some days I do
I pick apart the threads
Of every awful word they used
To kill me with their point of view

I'll find my key heaven
And I'll write in the stars
So charlie knows I made it through the dark

I had to learn to love myself
The hard way
Cause there no books for ten year olds
With heartache
If god is real then why'd he build me this way
It's what he's known for
I thought the good lord don't make mistakes
So why'd he make me this way
Way

Found my key to heaven
And it's all I ever hoped for
That ten year old they broke isn't hurting
Anymore