"STRANGER" lyrics

It's getting dark outside and I've lost my fire
Lost my way back home, now I'm looking for a sign
To tell me which way to go, I wanna do right
I wanna be used only by the most high
Cast my aspirations and ego aside
Chasing them so much that I barely survived
Now I'm stuck in this place that I don't recognize
Made me wonder if this was all paved out of lies

And I asked for this life
But I feel like a stranger in my own life
Just a stranger in my own life
For now I'm a stranger
Now I'm afraid to go back

Tried numbing the pain, leaning on my vice
You can find cheat codes, but in the end you'll pay the price
Ahead in some ways, in some I'm still so behind
Push people away and have to nowhere to confide
'Cause I can't even heal what I'm deal with inside
So I ran to the hills, and now I'm ill and inclined
Retracing my steps, they're getting harder to find

And I asked for this life
Oh, now I'm just a stranger in my life
Just a stranger in my life
For now I'm a stranger
Now I'm afraid to go back
Think we're going backwards, man