"Suffering In Silence" lyrics

Five years off the chemicals, I'm still scared of my own brain
Took time but I'm miserable, still scared of my old ways
They ask if I'm fine, I tell them a lie
The truth of the matter I'm broken inside
I'm trying to climb, been fallin' behind
And if I don't make it, don't think I'll survive

I can't let my demons out, so I gotta keep fightin'
And I can't let 'em break me down, so I'm just suffering in silence
So I'm just suffering in silence, I've been suffering in silence

Why would you want this life, I don't leave this house
I stopped doing drugs, so I don't go out
And people been talking, they been fillin' me with doubt
Like maybe I should go back on a—
Go and buy a brand new bottle then I'll fuck my life up
Go and see the reaper, ask him when's my time up
Pop another pill, black out
Tell 'em I'm done, I'm done
And I can't say all the things that I feel
I just throw away my heart in the furnace

So go ahead and run, I'll just walk away
Everybody does in the end, run, I'll just walk away
Everybody does in the end

I can't let my demons out, so I gotta keep fightin'
And I can't let 'em break me down, so I'm just suffering in silence
So I'm just suffering in silence, I've been suffering in silence