"Till It Kills Me" lyrics

I want you to need me
Needed is my favorite feeling
To be loved is complicated
It's messy
It's honest
Needed can be created
And I can do it right
Be someone I'm not
Someone I'm playing
I'd rather be accepted
Than myself and rejected

It ain't till death
It's till it kills me
What I have left
It's till it kills me
You want it a little fucked up
So you know it's real
A little too much
So you know it's real
Is that what you need to believe me?
Till it, till it kills me

Life is short
But it's the longest thing I've got
And I want to spend it
On people like you
Who hurt me in the right way
I'm trying way too hard
To give you my best
It isn't great
But who I should be
I haven't gotten to yet

It ain't till death
It's till it kills me
What I have left
It's till it kills me
You want it a little fucked up
So you know it's real
A little too much
So you know it's real
Is that what you need to believe me?
Till it, till it kills me

Till I'm shaking
Till I'm empty
If you let me
Till it kills me
Till I'm caving
Disintegrating
Till I'm filthy
Till it kills me
Till it, till it kills me

You want it a little fucked up
So you know it's real
A little too much
So you know it's real
Is that what you need to believe me?
Till it, till it kills me