"Song In E" lyrics

I wish that I drank because of you
And not only because of me
Then I could blame something painful enough
Not to make me look any more weak

And when you heard my name
You could be angry and you'd have a good reason to be
Then when I sing in a horrible drunken parade of my worst thoughts
I'd say "Give me no sympathy"
It's the mercy I can't take

I wish you'd come over
Not to stay, just to tell me that I was your biggest mistake to my face
And then leave me alone in an empty apartment
Face down in the carpet
I wish that you'd just hurt me
It's the mercy I can't take