"rider" lyrics

I can't trust what you say; I move
She ain't no rider, call you up lying
Gone without a trace, see the way I lose
You ain't no rider, you ain't no rider
Can't trust what you say, what you say, I move
She ain't no rider, call you up lying
Gone without a trace, see the way I lose
You ain't no rider, you ain't no rider, rider

Yeah, and either way I lose, either way I panic
Stuck with elevated thoughts, maybe I'm just manic
I taught myself to fly, but not to land it
So when I'm quiet and I'm shaking, they don't understand it
You're my rider, but I switch it in my mind
I was never used to love, so I'm just changing all the time
I freak out and push away, and I reframe it as a grind
But everybody knows I'm not
I'm just lying awake, I'm just finding my place
I'm finding something better for me, out of the way
Truthfully, you're there for me, you made no mistakes
So when I'm trapped inside my brain, please forgive me today
Please forgive me today

I can't trust what you say, I move
She ain't no rider, call you up lying
Gone without a trace, see the way I lose
You ain't no rider, you ain't no rider
Can't trust what you say, what you say, I move
She ain't no rider, call you up lying
Gone without a trace, see the way I lose
You ain't no rider, you ain't no rider, rider