"Mr. Self Destructive" lyrics

I'm Mr. Self-Destructive
My way of thinking's the polar opposite of self-productive
I'm Mr. Overthinker
I'm Mr. Look-in-the-Mirror-and-Say-You're-No-Good-for-Nothin'

I'm Mr. Do-It-All
Refusin' the help, it was screw 'em all
Dumbest thing I ever thought was thinkin' I knew it all, I ain't knew at all, I've been
Fightin' discouragement, spoke with a fan
He told me my music was nourishment
Funny, I feel like I haven't done shit
Think I'm the one that needed words of encouragement
Grew up inadequate
Grew up with addicts who thought that a bottle of liquor belongs in a medicine cabinet
Let's start unpackin' it
'Member when Daddy would carry a flask?
Momma was wearin' a mask
I know that both of 'em love me to death
But I carry the weight from my past
'Member my sister would take me to class?
Brother would take out the trash
I didn't have any money for lunch
'Cause no one was carrying cash

I'm Mr. Self-Destructive, I'm Mr. People Pleaser
I'm Mr. Oh-You-Don't-Like-Me? Huh, I don't like me either
I spent too much time makin' non-believers tryna be believers

[*sigh*], that shit ended up useless
Gotta get back to myself again, can someone please reintroduce us?
Some of my loneliest days remindin' myself that it's only a phase
I talked to a gentleman I didn't know, he approached and he told me this phrase
"Know we all live for the highs, our feelings are just like the clouds in the sky
They're all gonna pass, good and the bad
The focus should be on enjoyin' the ride, it's simple"
Huh, clichés are cliché for a reason
The picture I painted is sittin' a little uneven, uh
Drownin' in thoughts, ayy, don't take it for granted, you breathin'
Take it, you breathin'

It's hard when you self-destructive
'Cause that way's the polar opposite of self-productive
Don't be a overthinker
Wake up and go to the mirror and look at your-
Look at you- no good for nothin'