"Choke" lyrics

Sure you're not lying exactly
You've just mastered the absence of truth
My biggest crime is reacting
I'll spoon feed you another excuse

I'm showing up to your house unannounced
I hate the taste of your name in my mouth
You said at least if you were dead
You'd never hurt me again

I'd fix you if you'd let me
Been trying since the day you met me
Oh, I'm drawing blood, white knuckles, dug my nails in, I'm in trouble
I wanna scream it in your face but it gets stuck in my throat
And I choke

Still feel your hands on my necklace
Tore it off like you tore down my guard
I'm serving you like a sentence
Out of reach while I peek through the bars

Oh, you put me on a pedestal and left me there to rot
Now I'm calling out your name like I'm calling up to god
Can't get back the time so I'm jealous of the clock
And I can't stop

I'd fix you if you'd let me
Been trying since the day you met me
Oh, I'm drawing blood, white knuckles, dug my nails in, I'm in trouble
I wanna scream it in your face but it gets stuck in my throat
And I choke

You said I lie too
But just to myself
And maybe that's true
But I don't do it well
Wrote down "I don't love you"
Like a chalkboard in school
Did it 500 times
But nobody's fooled

I'd fix you if you'd let me
Been trying since the day you met me
Oh, I'm drawing blood, white knuckles, dug my nails in, I'm in trouble
I wanna scream it in your face but it gets stuck in my throat
And I choke